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[satisficing]

To see if the trial succeeded or failed? To see if Dahut is scraping you off the table again.

[joking]

[egodist]

Just find me later... You don't need to come here for it.

[keep viktor away from his tech right after scien performs a miracle it's so risky]

You can't keep inviting yourself to temptation. If you want me to fix you, wait. You won't even be able to keep the love that took you so long to admit to.

[satisficing]

[He is ?????????? for a moment. And then he kind of laughs slightly.]

I'm... not coming to look at your work. [This is so amusing to him.] I'm coming to drop off coffee and make sure neither of you are dead.

[He doesn't think either of them will be dead. It's the vibe of walking up to see if they're suffering immensely and need help.]

[egodist]

You can do so away from this place.

Neither of us will die. And even if we do, we can just have normal Reliver bodies.

[satisficing]

Alright, alright.

[He will probably end up leaving coffee and some snacks by the door ANYWAY because that's unfortunately just how EMOTIONS work for people who can feel them, it's very terrible. But he at least won't hang around.]

I will find you sometime later then. [...] Are you really prepared to test... having emotions?

[egodist]

[helppppp viktor is so fucking funny and cute]

I am. It has been my intention for some time, since Dahut and I spoke of it in early weeks. I simply didn't expect a chance to run the experiment before going back to Arpéchéle...

However, in the end, Relivers are meant to offer an opportunity at humanity. And I suppose... humanity is incomplete without its full range of feelings, however inconvenient they may be at times.

[satisficing]

[Terrible news, Dahut attacks him by the door, so he stays longer than he intended. Sorry to Scien for two of the most obnoxious people he knows.

This news makes his laugh. It's, like, a short one that is surprised out of him, but then when he hears it, he starts laughing more.]

Sorry, it's just... going to be strange if you have them. I don't know if I like it.

[Teasing.]

[egodist]

To be honest, I was never a particular emotive person even before I became a Reliver... So while I'm sure I'll have more than I do currently, I don't anticipate a big change.

[once a bitch always a bitch]

[satisficing]

[He thinks on this for a moment or two. He doesn't disbelieve Scien. He did see... a little of the memories that touched on it. However...]

You better be careful. You might just fall in love.

[egodist]

Oh, that.

Well, I plan to.

[satisficing]

[me rereading this several times like i'm being punk'd]

You... plan to fall in love?

[egodist]

That is what I said.

Unlike you, I don't plan on unnecessarily keeping my lover waiting out of cowardice.

[satisficing]

[He frowns indignantly, but not angrily.]

It wasn't cowardice. It was... consideration. Which, I'm sure, is not a word in your vocabulary when it comes to most things. The notion may jump on some people at once, but... sometimes, it can be a slow thing.

Love.

[egodist]

I am not criticizing your feeling, but simply the fact that you hesitated in admitting to it when you knew he felt the same.

[which is when scien jumped in. but regardless...]

I am not in love. This version of me will never be in love. It would be a grotesque, disastrous, fatal thing if I allowed it to happen.

But I will be. I don't know if it will be in days after I repair my heart, or months, likely not years... but it is inevitable.

[satisficing]

[Yes, thank you for your critique on his love life, Scien.

If he's surprised, he doesn't show it really.]

Love will find a way, yes. I suppose it will come even for the great god, Scien Brofiise. [This is a tease.] There are different kinds, you know.

Maybe you are already in love without knowing it, just not the kind we were discussing.

[egodist]

[he rolls his eyes]

I rather think that I am done being a god... I can still do plenty as a man.

[but he tilts his head when he gets to viktor's main point]

I would not say so... I do not think there is anything I cherish so deeply.

[satisficing]

[This makes him laugh quietly, amused.]

I feel as if shifting from being a god to a man is going to be an adjustment, but I can't say I'm not intrigued to see the process. For science.

...I don't know if that is quite true; however, even if it is, you will now hopefully have plenty of time to find things to cherish deeply. And then I can say you are foolish for rushing inside of a building to stop your lover from sacrificing themselves to save thousands of others.

[HE'S TEASING AGAIN.]

[egodist]

I didn't say that I would stop him....

[that was such a long ago conversation and scien remembers it through tipsy goggles but listen]

He'd be such a pain in the ass moping about it if he was responsible for that many people dying. [please be nice] I just wouldn't let him endure it alone.

The metaphor falls apart because I don't think your lover would, but would you stop him in the same scenario?

[satisficing]

[The first part is a sentiment Viktor can understand actually. It's easy to get caught up in enduring things alone after always being alone, whether it was self-imposed or environmental.

But then realizing you don't have to endure things alone actually, both love and pain and even the end.]

...I would try at least. What he wanted to do is up to him, in the end, but I would try so that he would know how much he really means to me. That a world without him in it... isn't a world worth living in. I know that's pretty selfish.

[egodist]

It is.

[confirming. but also,]

But you aren't the first person that I've seen that would do something like that. It's that type of behavior that has me convinced that love makes you insane.

[he doesn't sound entirely judgmental. a bit, yes, but almost sort of like a diagnosis. side-effect of love: pure fucking insanity.]

[satisficing]

[For once, he does not seem embarrassed at being called out on the selfishness.]

Oh, I would definitely venture to say there is a correlation between insanity and love for sure. It really... does make you quite insane.

[Looks at Lucien.]

That doesn't deter you from your choice?

[egodist]

I am already a bit mad. To adhere to logic above all else has always made me different from most people.

[scien is self-aware! this is why he didn't consider himself human for so long; he barely acts like one. that is its own type of insanity, even though he thinks he makes the most sense of everyone.

but as for this one...]

I expect my judgment to be swayed in some ways. [he frowns] I will hope that in the major ways, it isn't. Since there are so many lives in my hands...

But I think I've chosen someone who understands that. Who won't make me compromise my principles.

[otherwise would scien truly be capable of falling in love?]

[satisficing]

Decisions to be made when they arise.

[He tilts his head a bit, thoughtful. This is probably wrong; there's another choice, too, but:]

You wouldn't happen to be the person Eunhyuk came to me about, would you?

[He asks this in the tone of a guy who doesn't believe this, but is curious...?]

[egodist]

[ . . . ? ]

In what context?

[satisficing]

[A small shrug.]

He came to me the day before I was revived to ask me how I knew I was in love.