[ assigns mizuki as somewhere else ig so that viktor can find him alone.
by now, at least, the vibes are far less rancid and panicked and seem more...bleak. not really calm, but more settled and heavy but like the kind of heaviness where a person is used them. he hears the sound of the crutch though and there's a brief blip of surprise as he turns his head to look behind him. ]
Viktor. Is everything okay? [ i hate that he's concerned instead. ]
[He heard that. He just doesn't point it out or anything. He hates this past week.]
I was worried yesterday. The way he felt when I found him... The way the anger kept rising and then falling. I didn't know anything about Relivers then, though.
Yeah, he's nosy like that. [ faint fondness. ] Scien's standoffish about certain things, but he's pretty straightforward about a lot of other things. ...I kind of spoke with them enough, I guess. They told me about their research pretty early.
Dahut explained a bit here and there more recently when I asked about the blood, but nothing in great detail. It was... something I was a bit interested in, but I guess I won't have the opportunity now.
the. uh. hm. viktor says this and there's like a weird, quiet waver in shoma's emotions as he thinks. this is actually what he suspected, and it's actually why he asked. he doesn't mind that viktor's looking away, but...he doesn't bother.
there's a weird underlying current of uneasiness, something faintly hopeful and then something wildly unsure that all sort of tumble around for a moment while he stares at him some more. ]
Would you fix yours if you could? Even if the way to do it wasn't necessarily easy?
[This is the most penetrated by a stare he has ever received, damn. To be read, but not exactly know the reading. Some guilt swims up. It feels like Shoma can see the things he's hiding, the things he isn't saying. Like he has a giant sign. Like he's naked.]
What makes you think I haven't already been trying a way that wasn't ever easy?
I never said you weren't. [ why did you have to bring nudity into this. also yeah! this is kind of an intense thing because this particular subject is. something that requires a bit of delicacy but opens up a lot of questions. ] And I think that maybe you have, and it's why learning other methods from other worlds might be possible caught your interest.
[ please don't memshare your nudity with me. but...he does temper his emotions a little to be calmer. ]
Today was a very good example. ...as Relivers, everyone on their island dies by the time they're 23. Scien and Dahut both are part of an Institute researching for a cure, but also creating technology and tests to create Reliver bodies for people who want to extend their life. Their way of living is an example of less than ethical ways of doing something good.
[ ...there's the pause again. ]
...how much longer did you have even before the explosion, Viktor?
[ because. why else would he want to fix his body and talk about escaping death? ]
He hangs frozen in place momentarily, just looking at Shoma, and then he swallows and hangs his head slightly. A wry sort of tight, humorless smile curls his lips for a moment before fading into something devoid of anything.]
...Not long. Months maybe. I'm dying.
[He feels a bit guilty, standing and admitting that in the face of yesterday and today.]
[ there's just...a weird waver of guilt, suddenly, even though he's the one who fucking asked. it's not a reflection of viktor's guilt though, it's something else. and there's something a little like concern, followed by again...? ]
...and there's nothing that can be done to help you back home?
[WELCOME TO HELL. He does not look up. The emotions seeping out of him have deflated, given up on pretending. They are scared, a little bitter, but mostly numb.
He shakes his head.]
No. I was working on something, but... it wasn't ethical.
I... [ and he hesitates, probably more than usual. ] ...there's some research I was going to do. That's...that's what I was talking to Scien and Dahut about. I don't know what I might find, but it's possible there's still something that might help you.
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Because he is worried! He wants to check in.]
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by now, at least, the vibes are far less rancid and panicked and seem more...bleak. not really calm, but more settled and heavy but like the kind of heaviness where a person is used them. he hears the sound of the crutch though and there's a brief blip of surprise as he turns his head to look behind him. ]
Viktor. Is everything okay? [ i hate that he's concerned instead. ]
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He continues on his trek to catch up. STOP, DON'T BE CONCERNED BACK.]
I came to ask you the same thing. [He felt those fucking vibes.] Are you alright?
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and then kind of wishes he hadn't because he hates that question :nyeh: ]
I'm okay. Or...well. As okay as any of us can be after this. [ messy!! ]
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It was--a mess, yes. I hope it didn't scare you at the end. I understand.
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...knowing what we knew about the Relivers, I think it was more surprising he didn't malfunction like that sooner than the end.
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I was worried yesterday. The way he felt when I found him... The way the anger kept rising and then falling. I didn't know anything about Relivers then, though.
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...did you talk to him very much yesterday? Or know much about their situation?
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I don't think Dahut ever told me much about them. He was too busy asking me a hundred questions instead.
[TYPICAL]
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Yeah, he's nosy like that. [ faint fondness. ] Scien's standoffish about certain things, but he's pretty straightforward about a lot of other things. ...I kind of spoke with them enough, I guess. They told me about their research pretty early.
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Dahut explained a bit here and there more recently when I asked about the blood, but nothing in great detail. It was... something I was a bit interested in, but I guess I won't have the opportunity now.
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...curious for what reason? Just because?
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I wouldn't mind picking their brains if it means learning how to fix bodies.
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the. uh. hm. viktor says this and there's like a weird, quiet waver in shoma's emotions as he thinks. this is actually what he suspected, and it's actually why he asked. he doesn't mind that viktor's looking away, but...he doesn't bother.
there's a weird underlying current of uneasiness, something faintly hopeful and then something wildly unsure that all sort of tumble around for a moment while he stares at him some more. ]
Would you fix yours if you could? Even if the way to do it wasn't necessarily easy?
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What makes you think I haven't already been trying a way that wasn't ever easy?
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[ ...right? ]
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It is very hard to escape the clutches of death, and you often do very desperate things because of it. I guess today is a good example.
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Today was a very good example. ...as Relivers, everyone on their island dies by the time they're 23. Scien and Dahut both are part of an Institute researching for a cure, but also creating technology and tests to create Reliver bodies for people who want to extend their life. Their way of living is an example of less than ethical ways of doing something good.
[ ...there's the pause again. ]
...how much longer did you have even before the explosion, Viktor?
[ because. why else would he want to fix his body and talk about escaping death? ]
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He hangs frozen in place momentarily, just looking at Shoma, and then he swallows and hangs his head slightly. A wry sort of tight, humorless smile curls his lips for a moment before fading into something devoid of anything.]
...Not long. Months maybe. I'm dying.
[He feels a bit guilty, standing and admitting that in the face of yesterday and today.]
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...and there's nothing that can be done to help you back home?
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He shakes his head.]
No. I was working on something, but... it wasn't ethical.
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well... ]
Were you at least close to succeeding at all? [ "unethical how" is the question, but he doesn't quite ask. ]
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He shakes his head, not so much a no as a kind of frustrated despair. Amd a no.]
I don't know. I was... interrupted. I told Jayce later he had to destroy it because I couldn't do it.
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I... [ and he hesitates, probably more than usual. ] ...there's some research I was going to do. That's...that's what I was talking to Scien and Dahut about. I don't know what I might find, but it's possible there's still something that might help you.
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