[ please don't memshare your nudity with me. but...he does temper his emotions a little to be calmer. ]
Today was a very good example. ...as Relivers, everyone on their island dies by the time they're 23. Scien and Dahut both are part of an Institute researching for a cure, but also creating technology and tests to create Reliver bodies for people who want to extend their life. Their way of living is an example of less than ethical ways of doing something good.
[ ...there's the pause again. ]
...how much longer did you have even before the explosion, Viktor?
[ because. why else would he want to fix his body and talk about escaping death? ]
He hangs frozen in place momentarily, just looking at Shoma, and then he swallows and hangs his head slightly. A wry sort of tight, humorless smile curls his lips for a moment before fading into something devoid of anything.]
...Not long. Months maybe. I'm dying.
[He feels a bit guilty, standing and admitting that in the face of yesterday and today.]
[ there's just...a weird waver of guilt, suddenly, even though he's the one who fucking asked. it's not a reflection of viktor's guilt though, it's something else. and there's something a little like concern, followed by again...? ]
...and there's nothing that can be done to help you back home?
[WELCOME TO HELL. He does not look up. The emotions seeping out of him have deflated, given up on pretending. They are scared, a little bitter, but mostly numb.
He shakes his head.]
No. I was working on something, but... it wasn't ethical.
I... [ and he hesitates, probably more than usual. ] ...there's some research I was going to do. That's...that's what I was talking to Scien and Dahut about. I don't know what I might find, but it's possible there's still something that might help you.
...I just mean...with science and certain methods, there may still be something that can help prolong your life and change things. [ maybe that isn't what viktor is asking. ] Their research is a little terrifying and I don't fully understand it but at least taking the ideas and breaking them apart would be a start in the direction of finding out if there's a right solution for you.
I don't think any of us thought murder was going to happen this soon. [ don't say it like it was inevitable. ] ...but Scien, at least, is just in holding until the tour's over. So there's still some time.
anyway. his emotions are just...deeply heavy, for some reason, as he considers this. ]
...sure. I understand. When you're on a time limit and you know it, you sort of have to hurry as best as you can. Just in case. [ ... ] Is that why you wanted to rush the hex tech, too?
[ viktor, a man who wanted to see his inventions do something for the greater good before he died. is...that really it? ]
Is there a reason this mini him is just able to keep calling him out over and over?? He'd love to know!! His smile is tight again, not much of a real smile.]
...Yes. There is... just so much left for me to do.
[ i was gonna give you lore but now i'm scared and want a sunday thread because you mentioned it. so. wow! he does not seem at all offended nor surprised by the lack of real warmth or genuine feeling in the smile. ]
...if you had the time. What else would you work on changing?
[NOOOOOOOOOO MY LORE!!!!!!!! GRABS IT AS IT SLIPS THROUGH MY FINGERS LIKE GRAINS OF SAND. stop it's just an update with scien cr it's fine]
I don't know yet. I had been working on... the Hex Core. I had notes on... Well, the very scraps of notes on something not much different than Roboji. Something bigger.
A robot I could send into Zaun to help clean it up.
[ glances. yeah i want it and i promise you big lore pats you. ]
...that'd probably help a lot, wouldn't it? To try and make it better and cleaner so there was less of a divide between it and Piltover. It's hard to make a change or even start making a difference, but as long as there's the chance.
[ he's just thinking this over. ]
Scien told me the senior crew said we'd have access to a library eventually. If it's books from all over the galaxy, there has to be something to point in the right direction. Something you can't get from your own world. If we can take knowledge from this tour back and replicate it...
[i just continue to give lore instead of receive it]
It will... take a long time for any change. There may not even be any change. Zaun is extremely polluted. I won't ever know if it can even be cleaned enough to be a place for a good quality of life.
[He leans on the crutch under his arm.]
It is what I planned to do already. But... when I go back... Well, you know already. It might not make much of a difference.
And I'm telling you, if you don't have to exactly go back at that exact moment...maybe it's possible to accomplish something you still tried to do. [ ... ]
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Today was a very good example. ...as Relivers, everyone on their island dies by the time they're 23. Scien and Dahut both are part of an Institute researching for a cure, but also creating technology and tests to create Reliver bodies for people who want to extend their life. Their way of living is an example of less than ethical ways of doing something good.
[ ...there's the pause again. ]
...how much longer did you have even before the explosion, Viktor?
[ because. why else would he want to fix his body and talk about escaping death? ]
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He hangs frozen in place momentarily, just looking at Shoma, and then he swallows and hangs his head slightly. A wry sort of tight, humorless smile curls his lips for a moment before fading into something devoid of anything.]
...Not long. Months maybe. I'm dying.
[He feels a bit guilty, standing and admitting that in the face of yesterday and today.]
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...and there's nothing that can be done to help you back home?
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He shakes his head.]
No. I was working on something, but... it wasn't ethical.
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well... ]
Were you at least close to succeeding at all? [ "unethical how" is the question, but he doesn't quite ask. ]
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He shakes his head, not so much a no as a kind of frustrated despair. Amd a no.]
I don't know. I was... interrupted. I told Jayce later he had to destroy it because I couldn't do it.
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I... [ and he hesitates, probably more than usual. ] ...there's some research I was going to do. That's...that's what I was talking to Scien and Dahut about. I don't know what I might find, but it's possible there's still something that might help you.
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What do you mean?
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I had thought I had more time to speak with them about it. [Shoma is trying so hard for him and for what.] It's alright.
I never had any intentions not to continue working on what could help me.
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I don't think any of us thought murder was going to happen this soon. [ don't say it like it was inevitable. ] ...but Scien, at least, is just in holding until the tour's over. So there's still some time.
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I suppose you're right.
[SMASHCUT TO THE NEXT DAY AAAAAAAAA]
I am just... very used to hurrying, I guess.
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anyway. his emotions are just...deeply heavy, for some reason, as he considers this. ]
...sure. I understand. When you're on a time limit and you know it, you sort of have to hurry as best as you can. Just in case. [ ... ] Is that why you wanted to rush the hex tech, too?
[ viktor, a man who wanted to see his inventions do something for the greater good before he died. is...that really it? ]
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Is there a reason this mini him is just able to keep calling him out over and over?? He'd love to know!! His smile is tight again, not much of a real smile.]
...Yes. There is... just so much left for me to do.
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...if you had the time. What else would you work on changing?
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I don't know yet. I had been working on... the Hex Core. I had notes on... Well, the very scraps of notes on something not much different than Roboji. Something bigger.
A robot I could send into Zaun to help clean it up.
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...that'd probably help a lot, wouldn't it? To try and make it better and cleaner so there was less of a divide between it and Piltover. It's hard to make a change or even start making a difference, but as long as there's the chance.
[ he's just thinking this over. ]
Scien told me the senior crew said we'd have access to a library eventually. If it's books from all over the galaxy, there has to be something to point in the right direction. Something you can't get from your own world. If we can take knowledge from this tour back and replicate it...
[ maybe you can save yourself anyway. ]
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It will... take a long time for any change. There may not even be any change. Zaun is extremely polluted. I won't ever know if it can even be cleaned enough to be a place for a good quality of life.
[He leans on the crutch under his arm.]
It is what I planned to do already. But... when I go back... Well, you know already. It might not make much of a difference.
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But ultimately it's still your choice, I guess.
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I know. I'll think about it.
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Don't wait too long to talk to Scien. I'm gonna go, too.