[that's valid, sometimes you just say what you're feeling instead of swallowing it.
but she will sit! she sits and presses her leg against his, like she's not sure he's real, still. i'm sorry, she's gotten so much more touchy since he's been gone.]
... Yes. I'm not excited about the fact that we're coughing up more plantlike things. [god.] I'm not sure the significance.
[man you missed all the good lore effects she had some wild rust going on]
I doubt you're the cause. I've been doing it since I woke up. [...] When did you see Lucien first? When did you even... how did you get here? You're not...
[i mean like, she was the one to examine his body when he died, so she's having a hard time with this.]
He reaches out to curl his hand over her own, bringing it to his thigh so he can wrap it up with both hands.]
It's okay. I woke up in the stasis pod last night with some of the senior crew. I had to stay in the room to be monitored, and I could only have a few visitors because they were worried something might happen.
I wanted to see you, too, but... I was really tired, so I just called Lucien. I'm sorry. I'm pretty sure I fell asleep on him before we even talked about much anyway.
no, it's fine. he's alive and that's what she cares about. a pause.]
... But nothing did happen? [there's a second where she kind of just looks thoughtful? and then she shakes her head.] You don't know how it happened? Just that you woke up in the stasis pod?
[sometimes a gremlin friend wants to shock a gremlin friend on the mingle listen here]
I don't... really know how it happened, but I can say the experience was... less than stellar. Something... has... definitely eaten us in some kind of way, I think.
... Alright. So I was correct that it's literally eating people and isn't a metaphor. [she KNEW she was right, CHARLES!!!!] It's doing that to planets, too. The ship.
Which I assume you know considering I think the dead sent us the hundred thousand rats.
Don't try to get away with this, you lie like a cowlick. [which is to say he can't lie because it sticks up in weird places] The rest of the dead were horrified to know that it was Yuri who was attacked, apparently.
[she shifts her fingers so she can hold one of his hands where he's got her clasped.]
... How much do you remember? I feel as though I have so much to talk to you about that I haven't been able to fit into those letters.
[He smiles fondly, but it's a bit weak with understanding.]
I think he's getting a bit worn down actually. He was a little upset after the last... rift. The one... for Lucien. He had to harm others, so... [It really got to Sidon, naturally.] The rest of us, too.
But we haven't given up completely. We've been working on what we can.
... Yes, well. I wasn't going to tell you everything the very first day I met you. [...] I'm sorry that you had to experience him. Lucien told me a little about it, though he wasn't on... your side, so I don't know exactly what it was you saw.
[Stop being closed off, that's why you are choking on flowers (no).]
You don't have to apologize. I did not like him, as I'm sure you've heard a thousand times. He was... an "arsehole," as Lucien would say. Aside from your brothers and sisters... that was not a family, Throne. Not at all.
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He has a seat with her, here here, sit sit. He puts the cube in his lap.]
Not yet, I don't think? A bit of a tickle sometimes.
[This is what happens when you are not emotionally constipated.]
It worries me because they're flowers...
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but she will sit! she sits and presses her leg against his, like she's not sure he's real, still. i'm sorry, she's gotten so much more touchy since he's been gone.]
... Yes. I'm not excited about the fact that we're coughing up more plantlike things. [god.] I'm not sure the significance.
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So many of you were doing it today after running into me. [Hmm.] Am... I... the cause?
Lucien wasn't coughing any up when he was with me either...
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I doubt you're the cause. I've been doing it since I woke up. [...] When did you see Lucien first? When did you even... how did you get here? You're not...
[i mean like, she was the one to examine his body when he died, so she's having a hard time with this.]
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He reaches out to curl his hand over her own, bringing it to his thigh so he can wrap it up with both hands.]
It's okay. I woke up in the stasis pod last night with some of the senior crew. I had to stay in the room to be monitored, and I could only have a few visitors because they were worried something might happen.
I wanted to see you, too, but... I was really tired, so I just called Lucien. I'm sorry. I'm pretty sure I fell asleep on him before we even talked about much anyway.
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no, it's fine. he's alive and that's what she cares about. a pause.]
... But nothing did happen? [there's a second where she kind of just looks thoughtful? and then she shakes her head.] You don't know how it happened? Just that you woke up in the stasis pod?
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I don't... really know how it happened, but I can say the experience was... less than stellar. Something... has... definitely eaten us in some kind of way, I think.
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she. makes a face.]
... Alright. So I was correct that it's literally eating people and isn't a metaphor. [she KNEW she was right, CHARLES!!!!] It's doing that to planets, too. The ship.
Which I assume you know considering I think the dead sent us the hundred thousand rats.
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[Well, yeah.]
Ah, so you do know. Good. [A pause.] We're being blamed for a hundred thousand rats...?
[He cannot lie to say his life, though, so his lips sort of twist in amusement.]
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Don't try to get away with this, you lie like a cowlick. [which is to say he can't lie because it sticks up in weird places] The rest of the dead were horrified to know that it was Yuri who was attacked, apparently.
[she shifts her fingers so she can hold one of his hands where he's got her clasped.]
... How much do you remember? I feel as though I have so much to talk to you about that I haven't been able to fit into those letters.
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He allows her to have his hand. Hand holding.]
We were a little dismayed, yes. I'll have to tell her sorry on our behalf.
[He smiles lopsidedly.]
As far as I know, everything. The letters are too short, yes. But now you can tell me anything.
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I wouldn't even know where to begin. [she says, with a sigh.] ... How is everybody? I hear from you and Sidon the most.
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They're okay, surprisingly. Everyone has mostly gotten along. Except me and Scien at first, I guess.
And Harley and Owner for a moment.
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[...] And I can imagine I know why with Harley and Owner.
Are they in high spirits? Low spirits? Sidon is always encouraging, but I know that's how he is.
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I think he's getting a bit worn down actually. He was a little upset after the last... rift. The one... for Lucien. He had to harm others, so... [It really got to Sidon, naturally.] The rest of us, too.
But we haven't given up completely. We've been working on what we can.
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[but she did not realize that it was actually sidon until she got viktor's message. a beat.]
You... you went through something of mine.
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Yes...
[Another squeeze to her hand, gentle.]
It's okay. Though... you had left out a little chunk of explanation before, I have realized...
[Teasing. Lightly.]
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... Yes, well. I wasn't going to tell you everything the very first day I met you. [...] I'm sorry that you had to experience him. Lucien told me a little about it, though he wasn't on... your side, so I don't know exactly what it was you saw.
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[Stop being closed off, that's why you are choking on flowers (no).]
You don't have to apologize. I did not like him, as I'm sure you've heard a thousand times. He was... an "arsehole," as Lucien would say. Aside from your brothers and sisters... that was not a family, Throne. Not at all.
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... I know. [she says, softer.] They were all I had, at the time.
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[Her hands just keep getting squeezes, I guess.]
Were you... actually looking for treasure? For him. That's what he had us do. Look for a treasure.
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... No. His jobs usually were assassinations. [she glances at him.] What was the treasure he had you find?
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It was... um, a treasure of a god? Alpates? But it turned out to be... two pieces of a mirror, I think.
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Oh - no, Alpates was a woman. We found her hidden away in a cathedral. [...] But she did have a mirror. I'm not sure what it was for, but she had one.
We'd always heard that it was some sort of forbidden treasure, as children.
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That was it. [His hand goes back down on top of hers.] When we met up with Lucien, Eunhyuk, and Shu, I think... they may... have killed her?
[His brain was scramblies, he can't remember. Someone was fucking dead.]
That's what Fa--he told us. Sort of. But we found the mirror with... two other people. Very bizarre. A man and a woman. We had to fight them.
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