He lowers his hands to gathers her up again.] I was scared, [he admits.] Terrified. I am still very scared. [A pause. Quietly:] ...I've had this conversation already with someone. [Exasperated. He shakes his head.]
I am still very scared for so many reasons. I don't know how any of this is going to end. I was dead, and I could barely communicate. I had never... experienced these feelings before in my life. I'm sick... with no much longer to live. I was being blown up, I'm pretty sure, right before getting here. My body is... hideous, if I'm honest. Our lifespans may be completely different. I don't want to hurt anyone.
And that's just me.
...But I can't keep letting the present slip out of my fingers anymore because I'm too worried about all of that happening.
[protests first actually, you shut up!! a pause, though, as she absorbs the rest of it. she allows him to take her hands, but squirms slightly. her collar feels so heavy around her neck.]
... I offered Lucien a place in Solistia, while we figure things out. If you want to come as well. I know that's a lot to consider, but... but I didn't want him to go back to a world that was going to kill him.
[HIS BODY IS HIDEOUS. His expression softens at what she says. He has more to say, BUT!!!]
This is about you and Arthur. About you telling him how you feel. I know we can't all be like Sidon and proudly claim love for someone, but... you should.
He gives her hands a squeeze gently.] Throne, I love you, but you are so stupid. [HE CAN SAY THIS BECAUSE HE ALSO WAS EXTREMELY FUCKING STUPID!!!!!!!! It's fine.]
Is this how everyone else felt with me? [Laughing.] That man likes you immensely. I would even go so far as to say he loves you.
That's okay. He gives her time to recover from him dropping the bomb on top of her. He smiles reassuringly.]
There, that's the spirit. I wouldn't let it go too long, but... take your time. If you want, I could always come with you and stand off in the distance so you can run away to me right after you say it.
[He thinks this is silly, so he's mostly joking, but he understands.]
[Blessed by the annoying petals of hanahaki. It's his turn to get a bit sheepish.]
Well... Technically, he is the one who told me first. I did not have an opportunity to really say it back, it was very sudden, so... I didn't. I, um, wasn't sure how he really felt before that because I... was dead, and communicating was difficult.
Also, another... ah, issue arose in the middle of this. Anyway... I have told him how I feel now.
[He starts hiccuping flower petals for once in the annoying time he's been here and hasn't. Little pink and yellow ones. He shoves a hand over his mouth, coughing. Now he's embarrassed!!! WHY.]
[OOOOOOOOOOOOO, he does not want to do this, but the idea of not doing this makes the back of his throat tickle so terrible he starts hacking behind his fist.]
Alright!
[Not to her. To this week.]
Alright... Mn. [He clears his throat.] It was just... Mm. Sidon told me that he loved me.
It wasn't one of those items, no. He told me, but... Lucien had... kissed me before I died, so I had... wanted to talk to him about it, but... [Clearing throat, waving a hand.] Communicating, you know.
No, no. I believe it. [she says, amused. she is absolutely teasing him which is rich considering the fact that she goes bright pink when people talk about her and arthur.]
He is an intense person. What you said to him, whatever it was, stuck with him, just as what you've said has stuck with me. [a beat.] I, however, am not going to admit to you that I've been in love with you for this whole time, so be thankful.
[it was fitting... even if people are gonna think it's about us
He smiles a little. It's a happy smile!] Thank you. I'm happy for you, too. [He might not think he deserves it, but he does think she deserves it. (ignores how they are the same)]
I'm really sorry you had to put up with him for so long by yourself while also having your own things to worry about.
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coughs more petals.]
... No. [help]
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I see.
[POT. Kettle.]
You should tell him. Trust me. If you don't... you'll never forgive yourself.
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... I want to. [she says, rubbing at her face. she's like, scared to, though. what if he doesn't like her back, viktor ):]
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He lowers his hands to gathers her up again.] I was scared, [he admits.] Terrified. I am still very scared. [A pause. Quietly:] ...I've had this conversation already with someone. [Exasperated. He shakes his head.]
I am still very scared for so many reasons. I don't know how any of this is going to end. I was dead, and I could barely communicate. I had never... experienced these feelings before in my life. I'm sick... with no much longer to live. I was being blown up, I'm pretty sure, right before getting here. My body is... hideous, if I'm honest. Our lifespans may be completely different. I don't want to hurt anyone.
And that's just me.
...But I can't keep letting the present slip out of my fingers anymore because I'm too worried about all of that happening.
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[protests first actually, you shut up!! a pause, though, as she absorbs the rest of it. she allows him to take her hands, but squirms slightly. her collar feels so heavy around her neck.]
... I offered Lucien a place in Solistia, while we figure things out. If you want to come as well. I know that's a lot to consider, but... but I didn't want him to go back to a world that was going to kill him.
[worms out of talking about herself]
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This is about you and Arthur. About you telling him how you feel. I know we can't all be like Sidon and proudly claim love for someone, but... you should.
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she coughs up a bunch of the same flowers again, but thankfully it's into the crook of her elbow this time. bleeehhh.]
... I don't think I can handle it if he doesn't feel the same way. [she says, with a little helpless laugh.]
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He gives her hands a squeeze gently.] Throne, I love you, but you are so stupid. [HE CAN SAY THIS BECAUSE HE ALSO WAS EXTREMELY FUCKING STUPID!!!!!!!! It's fine.]
Is this how everyone else felt with me? [Laughing.] That man likes you immensely. I would even go so far as to say he loves you.
But what do I know? I've been dead for a while.
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sorry it takes her a hot minute to reply because she's dying. the air leaks out of her like a balloon. jesus.]
I'm not... [protests weakly, but. no, okay, maybe she is stupid.] I'll try.
[she will be Brave]
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That's okay. He gives her time to recover from him dropping the bomb on top of her. He smiles reassuringly.]
There, that's the spirit. I wouldn't let it go too long, but... take your time. If you want, I could always come with you and stand off in the distance so you can run away to me right after you say it.
[He thinks this is silly, so he's mostly joking, but he understands.]
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Don't be ridiculous. [...] Did you do this with Lucien?
[you better have after the four weeks of pining]
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Well... Technically, he is the one who told me first. I did not have an opportunity to really say it back, it was very sudden, so... I didn't. I, um, wasn't sure how he really felt before that because I... was dead, and communicating was difficult.
Also, another... ah, issue arose in the middle of this. Anyway... I have told him how I feel now.
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... Good. [another little smile...] He has been annoying about you for weeks.
[a beat.] Another issue, hm?
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[He starts hiccuping flower petals for once in the annoying time he's been here and hasn't. Little pink and yellow ones. He shoves a hand over his mouth, coughing. Now he's embarrassed!!! WHY.]
Um--y-- [cough] --yes.
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Tell me about it.
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Alright!
[Not to her. To this week.]
Alright... Mn. [He clears his throat.] It was just... Mm. Sidon told me that he loved me.
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... Did he really? It wasn't one of those items? [she thinks about temenos and nodd like excalibur face]
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It wasn't one of those items, no. He told me, but... Lucien had... kissed me before I died, so I had... wanted to talk to him about it, but... [Clearing throat, waving a hand.] Communicating, you know.
[It was bad.]
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Before you died? [goddamn] He really swooped in...
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Well, it was... [A small cough. Maybe one red petal comes out.] It was, um, the night before.
So... [LOOKS LIKE HE'S STRUGGLING. Quickly:] I guess it was a bit fast.
I thought he was also cursed, but... he said he wasn't.
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No, no. I believe it. [she says, amused. she is absolutely teasing him which is rich considering the fact that she goes bright pink when people talk about her and arthur.]
He is an intense person. What you said to him, whatever it was, stuck with him, just as what you've said has stuck with me. [a beat.] I, however, am not going to admit to you that I've been in love with you for this whole time, so be thankful.
[teehee]
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I would probably wither on the spot.
[He does NOT need anyone else saying they love him. The look softens slightly, though, and he's more shy again.]
I'm not sure what I said to him either. I say a lot of stupid things.
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Well. Those stupid things are good for people like us. [she says, tilting her head.] You ought to give yourself a little more credit, Viktor.
... I'm happy for you, you know. And for him. He is one of my dearest friends here.
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He smiles a little. It's a happy smile!] Thank you. I'm happy for you, too. [He might not think he deserves it, but he does think she deserves it. (ignores how they are the same)]
I'm really sorry you had to put up with him for so long by yourself while also having your own things to worry about.
[Arthur and Temenos, he means.]
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Well, I am very experienced with stupid men. [a beat.] Or... I suppose whatever Lucien is. He did tell me that he isn't exactly one.
[she doesn't know a nonbinary but she's doing her best]
Regardless. I'm used to dealing with morons. He's just my favorite type.
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