I didn't want to do that. I had too much I wanted to say. [ but he is watching to make sure viktor doesn't keel over, mostly. and he's about to suggest that they have a seat if he'd like but then viktor really just. says that. and shoma stares. ]
...I'm sorry, did you just say "birthed"? [ FROM WHAT. ]
...alarming, and also sort of gross. [ and yet it's what you deserve. not viktor, just you. ] ...did you know this would happen? I know you guys were doing tests and stuff on the other side.
[Alarming and gross. ALSO WHAT THE FCK, DON'T JUST SAY I DESERVE IT!!!!]
No, I didn't... Well, I felt... a little strange before it happened. But nothing telling, and... I just thought I was cursed, or something. I didn't even... get to tell anyone goodbye.
That's...also alarming. If you can just disappear from the...belly...without warning, who's to say someone else can't but end up somewhere else entirely? It's something we should keep in mind. [ hm... ] Strange how?
[The graveyard may have already been pretty insane without the added flesh bonus.]
Well, Amalthea did say that there was a high probability they could have summoned a rat into my body, so...
[WORRYING.]
It felt like... I was being touched? Like grabbed or pulled. Every so often. But I don't remember how I got from point A to point B necessarily. I was there, and then... I was just... in a fleshy sort of...
Into? [ NO. NO MORE RATS. ] I wonder how then...I'm glad it didn't hurt or anything even if you were apparently forced to be some sort of fleshy butterfly. Like somebody was letting you ripen or whatever and actually all of these descriptions are bad.
They're... stable. As far as I can tell. I haven't had any issues with them. The first night, I was confined to bed rest, and Metis checked on me periodically to make sure they were intact.
Probably for the best. I'd probably do the same if something like this happened suddenly. [ there's still like. tentative tailwagging emotions here. ] I didn't mean to just bombard you with a ton of questions, but...I don't know. If you were able to come back, that has to mean we can keep making other improvements, too.
Well if there's any of yours you want to ask, I can try to answer, too. [ sometimes...yeah even if you're actually eighteen you are cute, that's just life. ]
...how is everyone over there? Like really. Letters really only tell us so much, and I got to catch up with a lot of them when you were all able to come to our side but it didn't feel like enough.
You wouldn't be wrong... I think everyone is... hanging on. We were worried about all of you and what was happening. We were restless, starving for finding answers. We were a little tired.
But I think they're okay. And we're going to get them back.
Even knowing you're not completely gone, it's probably still not great to be dead. There're so many uncertainties, and especially knowing we're all still separated. Shouxue told me about how much you guys are able to see, and Eunhyuk mentioned some of the tests you were going to try. But...it feels like it'd be easy to reach a dead end.
We reached a lot of dead ends, yes. I think it was a little harder on some of us because... we're so used to fixing problems. Scien, Dahut, me, Luke. But nothing would ever turn up results that helped.
...yeah, I get that. It's been the same on my end, too. [ so many of the nerds really went and died on him and left him alone here. help him. ] There's only so many times you can say "at least this proved what wouldn't work" before it gets tiresome not having something that does.
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Thank you. Even getting the most basic idea across was difficult. [ huff. but he pauses to look him over again. ]
But you're right. So to start with...[ a soft grin. ] How're you feeling?
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Yes, it was, unless you wasted all of them to one person.
[He touches his chest a bit, glancing at himself as Shoma looks him over. Kinda still raggedy, if he's honest.]
A bit tired still, but... surprisingly, not too bad for being... um, birthed?
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I didn't want to do that. I had too much I wanted to say. [ but he is watching to make sure viktor doesn't keel over, mostly. and he's about to suggest that they have a seat if he'd like but then viktor really just. says that. and shoma stares. ]
...I'm sorry, did you just say "birthed"? [ FROM WHAT. ]
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Me, too.
[Imagine wanting to waste two letters to make a single one bigger when 900 words still isn't enough.]
Yes... Something... like that, I guess. I'm not sure exactly what was happening, but whatever was... it was a lot.
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[Alarming and gross. ALSO WHAT THE FCK, DON'T JUST SAY I DESERVE IT!!!!]
No, I didn't... Well, I felt... a little strange before it happened. But nothing telling, and... I just thought I was cursed, or something. I didn't even... get to tell anyone goodbye.
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That's...also alarming. If you can just disappear from the...belly...without warning, who's to say someone else can't but end up somewhere else entirely? It's something we should keep in mind. [ hm... ] Strange how?
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Well, Amalthea did say that there was a high probability they could have summoned a rat into my body, so...
[WORRYING.]
It felt like... I was being touched? Like grabbed or pulled. Every so often. But I don't remember how I got from point A to point B necessarily. I was there, and then... I was just... in a fleshy sort of...
[Shakes his head and raises a hand, stumped.]
Cocoon?
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[ ugh. ]
...did you show up in the church?
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[BUT IT'S FINE. Shoma is right.]
Mm-mm. I woke up in my stasis pod. The senior crew were there, and they were helping me out. [His brows furrow.] On the way, it was... like...
...I couldn't remember. I couldn't hold onto my memories well.
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[ but ah... ]
...statis pod makes sense, considering. And considering you guys were made of memory, maybe that makes sense, too. How're the memories now?
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They're... stable. As far as I can tell. I haven't had any issues with them. The first night, I was confined to bed rest, and Metis checked on me periodically to make sure they were intact.
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[Shoma is so cute... There is no reason for him to love this shrimp this much.]
I think the others have a solid chance.
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...how is everyone over there? Like really. Letters really only tell us so much, and I got to catch up with a lot of them when you were all able to come to our side but it didn't feel like enough.
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You wouldn't be wrong... I think everyone is... hanging on. We were worried about all of you and what was happening. We were restless, starving for finding answers. We were a little tired.
But I think they're okay. And we're going to get them back.
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It's a lot of pressure on both sides.
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We reached a lot of dead ends, yes. I think it was a little harder on some of us because... we're so used to fixing problems. Scien, Dahut, me, Luke. But nothing would ever turn up results that helped.
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...yeah, I get that. It's been the same on my end, too. [ so many of the nerds really went and died on him and left him alone here. help him. ] There's only so many times you can say "at least this proved what wouldn't work" before it gets tiresome not having something that does.