He FINALLY turns around and sits down at the table with Shoma. Suddenly, I'm wondering if the table is not solid because it's a simulation, but I am making it solid for us.]
I did.
[In before Arcane tells me he did not in the second season.]
I made the brace to hook onto the screws the doctors put in my back.
[ stop this better be solid!! but viktor has a sit and shoma sits up a little taller to face him. good. less worry. ]
...I guess it's better to do it yourself so you know exactly how it'll work with you. [ there's still a little tinge of unhappiness. ] How long ago was that though?
[He props the top of the crutch against himself with the leg leaned out across the floor and away.]
I got the brace for my leg when I was a teenager. My family was too poor to afford anything when I was your age. The back brace, I got about several years ago.
Are you sure... this isn't too... um, [what's the word he's looking for] upsetting for you to listen to?
[ he doesn't seem like it's upsetting entirely. more like he's frustrated how unfair it is for someone to suffer. ]
No, it's okay. I guess I just can't really imagine how it must've been without another option at the time. [ there's also a ping of understanding about not being able to afford things, along with a weird, complex emotion that pops up a little every now and then that's hard to pinpoint. ] There's nothing else that can be done to help?
[Lifts this baby boy up. Kind. :face_holding_back_tears:
Viktor glances away in and effort to pretend like he is looking at the simulation still. An iron ball of guilt settles in Shoma's stomach.]
Nothing ethical probably. [The laugh he huffs is deathly quiet and humorless.] Wouldn't it be nice to just be able to replace all your parts with machinery when they start failing?
[ oh hm. viktor says that and shoma can't quite bury the brief pulse of something like fear and also anger at the idea of unethical treatments. ]
...it's a possibility where I'm from, sort of. You hear about it all the time with companies making prosthetic limbs and everything. [ ... ] I know a few people with false eyes, too. At least then you know how to take care of those pieces when something goes wrong. It's...harder to fix something organic that's just a part of you.
[Ha ha... It's fine. He will try not to scare the guy with unethical medical practices.
Using the top of the crutch, he props his chin up not unlike a child on a table. Head rest.]
I guess the screws in me are a start. It isn't a bad idea... I think it's something possible for me. [Shoma can sort of feel him swallow.] Well, it would be possible, depending on how things go.
but he does sort of grin, even if it's not entirely amused because the situation's still making him very thoughtful. ]
Well, I've never built something like that before, but I could figure it out. [ this is half a tease and half serious because he does in fact later talk to someone else about maybe offering to build viktor a better brace. it's fine. ]
Freedom doesn't necessarily always mean...[ but he seems to think better of continuing and he settles for a soft nod. well. that's a fair point. he's not necessarily worried, but he has some thoughts on it. but instead he latches onto the next piece while the emotional vibe is just thoughtful and reclusive. ]
At least doing something with your own hands is an accomplishment. Plus sometimes you end up creating something you never realized you could.
But not the full extent of how you could or the results. [ he gets it. this is how his own creative process goes. but he pauses when viktor actually calls him out on the aborted sentence, and he frowns a little as he tries to decide how to frame it. ]
...freedom doesn't always mean actually physically leaving. There're other ways of being stuck sometimes. That's all.
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He FINALLY turns around and sits down at the table with Shoma. Suddenly, I'm wondering if the table is not solid because it's a simulation, but I am making it solid for us.]
I did.
[In before Arcane tells me he did not in the second season.]
I made the brace to hook onto the screws the doctors put in my back.
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...I guess it's better to do it yourself so you know exactly how it'll work with you. [ there's still a little tinge of unhappiness. ] How long ago was that though?
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I got the brace for my leg when I was a teenager. My family was too poor to afford anything when I was your age. The back brace, I got about several years ago.
Are you sure... this isn't too... um, [what's the word he's looking for] upsetting for you to listen to?
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No, it's okay. I guess I just can't really imagine how it must've been without another option at the time. [ there's also a ping of understanding about not being able to afford things, along with a weird, complex emotion that pops up a little every now and then that's hard to pinpoint. ] There's nothing else that can be done to help?
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Viktor glances away in and effort to pretend like he is looking at the simulation still. An iron ball of guilt settles in Shoma's stomach.]
Nothing ethical probably. [The laugh he huffs is deathly quiet and humorless.] Wouldn't it be nice to just be able to replace all your parts with machinery when they start failing?
Like Roboji.
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...it's a possibility where I'm from, sort of. You hear about it all the time with companies making prosthetic limbs and everything. [ ... ] I know a few people with false eyes, too. At least then you know how to take care of those pieces when something goes wrong. It's...harder to fix something organic that's just a part of you.
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Using the top of the crutch, he props his chin up not unlike a child on a table. Head rest.]
I guess the screws in me are a start. It isn't a bad idea... I think it's something possible for me. [Shoma can sort of feel him swallow.] Well, it would be possible, depending on how things go.
If there's time.
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anyway he watches him for a moment. ]
...I guess then it's a matter of if you want it to be possible.
[ ...if there's time, huh. ]
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Something to think about at least.
[He looks back at Shoma.]
So when I begin to become the machine man, do I give you a ring when I need some parts?
[He's teasing.]
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but he does sort of grin, even if it's not entirely amused because the situation's still making him very thoughtful. ]
Well, I've never built something like that before, but I could figure it out. [ this is half a tease and half serious because he does in fact later talk to someone else about maybe offering to build viktor a better brace. it's fine. ]
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Even if there are a lot of parts that needs fixing...?
[HE IS STILL TEASING even though it's clear he knows Shoma is being genuine.]
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I can multitask. [ ... ] Besides, isn't it better to give people the option that allows a little more freedom?
[ limitations...suck. ]
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You have a point, yes. If you're worried about my freedom, you don't have to worry. I've always preferred staying in a room and working on something.
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Freedom doesn't necessarily always mean...[ but he seems to think better of continuing and he settles for a soft nod. well. that's a fair point. he's not necessarily worried, but he has some thoughts on it. but instead he latches onto the next piece while the emotional vibe is just thoughtful and reclusive. ]
At least doing something with your own hands is an accomplishment. Plus sometimes you end up creating something you never realized you could.
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Like Hextech. Well, we sort of had an idea we could, but...
[Peering at Shoma. He's Looking.]
"Freedom doesn't necessarily always mean"...?
[Shoma can't get off that easily only because Shoma has big need brain and now Viktor likes picking it. Sucks for Shoma.]
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...freedom doesn't always mean actually physically leaving. There're other ways of being stuck sometimes. That's all.