satisficing | owner catchall

Well, maybe it is.

But you are still here right now, yes? We may not be our real selves on this side, so I think you might as well figure things out with the time you still have to spend with them. If you are going to die anyway, and he will also die anyway in the end, then do what you can.

[It's true, but it's bizarre, and he has nothing to say against it, so he kind of just drops his head into his hands a bit.]

You have really started the whole mess of complicating my entire life. It was already complicated enough.

Well.

For once, my meddling was not on purpose.

[He gives Owner a very exasperated look of resignation.]

For once.

I do not hide that knowing the affairs of other is beneficial to me.

[ it's how he runs his business. ]

Your job. Yes, I remember.

[Demons are so damn nosy all the time.]

Isn't it a little unfair to probably have so many secrets yourself, but you keep trying to get everyone else's?

[ i hate you suffer in living

he tilts his head. ]

How so?

[🥺🥺]

Because it is just unfair. [LOOK.] Why secrets...? Is it really... just sustenance and "helping"?

There is nothing else I want. I do not need money, or land, or power. But I cannot simply offer my services for free-- that is asking to be taken advantage of, especially by those who want those aforementioned things.

So, secrets.

[In theory, this makes sense to him even though he has no dealings usually in, like... the occult, or secrets.

Well. Scratch that, he has more dealings in the occult and secrets now because of the Core, but whatever.]

I see. Do people often try to take advantage of you?

Edited (MY ICON) 2024-04-11 18:08 (UTC)

People will always try to take advantage of you. That is simply a consequence of interacting with others. However, whether or not they succeed is a different story.

[ they can try! but owner has seniority in manipulation and gaslighting, thank you ]

[Don't just say people will always do that............... He knows this is true very well, but listen here.]

You make it sound so easy not to be on the bottom rung of the ladder. I guess that's true for a person who can summon many arms...?

I would not say it's summoning... for me it is just my, ah, biology.

[ that is the scientific way to explain it. ]

[Not the Eldritch horror...]

I see. I'm sorry then. [For getting it wrong, he means.] Does that mean, um.

[He isn't sure how to say what he wants. What's the polite way.]

That you have another kind of body? That this one is just... a presentation?

[ the question makes him smile. ]

That question comes up often. I do like how you phrased it though.

[ most people just ask him what's his real form. which can be frustrating, because, ]

Yes. But it is because I do not have an... original body, in the sense that you do. Every form I take is one that is a presentation, because I have no form.

[Hm. This is bizarre to him, as a human, of course. The idea of having no true, reliable form.]

So... you are... like an idea?

[That's about the closest he can come to calling it.]

You're...

[HELP HIM. He is a thinker-fixer, and not being able to put this anomaly into words is hell.]

I don't know. A philosophy about... [hm] ...knowing your true self?

Your true self...

[ he does not confirm or deny the theory. ]

Do you know your own?

[Don't just continue being a mysterious demonic idea of a cryptid.]

I don't know. But... I think maybe I'm beginning to find out here.

It is not something you really get to explore at home.

[ the way owner's impression of viktor's home life is that he is probably going to explode and that he killed his assistant. ]

[That is... mostly it, yeah, Owner has him down.

Well, there is also being terminally ill, too, but what is that in the face of also explosion and killing an assistant?]

It... really isn't, yes. Not usually. Not until it's too late.

[ yea!

but he nods his head. ]

If everything goes right, are you considering going elsewhere, if possible?

[ like in theory they can just use the ship to their worlds so. what is stopping them from hopping off at a different stop. ]

[He isn't wrong. Viktor sort of pauses thoughtfully.]

Probably. Jayce would be alright without me. He has all of our research for Hextech. There... was no one else.

[...]

I think... I will just go wherever Lucien goes.

[ oh. gay. ]

If you go back to his world, you will need to learn spells.

[ he does not believe viktor would be a good fighter class ]

[He winces a bit.]

I am, uh, a terrible wizard actually. So maybe I will just keep working with my inventions...

I'm not sure if he will go back to his own world, or not. I would have to talk to him about it.

[ it is a little odd to think about life after eudora, in the sense that they are not even sure if they'll be able to leave but. optimism and all that. ]

Where else?

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