[THESE SOFT FEELINGS FROM EUNHYUK!!!!! Don't tell Viktor any of this, he would shrivel up and die of shyness. Which is funny considering Sky also thought this about him, and he failed to see it.
So maybe it's time to change, to make amends.
A small smile comes to his face. He does understand exactly how Eunhyuk feels.] Yes. [He says this so quickly.
He holds the Rubik's Cube out; Eunhyuk can take it if he wants.]
I still am. Very afraid. There are... so many uncertain variables. I'm sick; I have maybe... a year or so to live. I'm pretty sure I was getting blown up right before waking up here, too. Lucien is stuck in his own calamity with the Nine, with parts of himself. And my body is... [A wry laugh.] ...terribly unattractive. This isn't even accounting for... differences in lifespans maybe. Things like that. How this will all turn out in the end.
But someone reminded me that... even if all of those things didn't exist, if everything was lining up perfectly... I could still die unexpectedly at any time. Lucien could, too. So what point is there in being too afraid to move forward? I want to stop... squandering the time I do have being scared of the future.
If you love them, tell them. Sidon taught me that, too.
Eunhyuk carefully takes the cube, and holds it in his hand like it’s a baby bird, as tentatively as he’s listening to Viktor as he speaks. He’s not making it hard to understand, actually he’s making it very easy. That despite all these obstacles, Viktor clearly believes that his love has greater value, that it’s worth it.]
…If I tell them, then I should be ready to commit to them too, right? I should be prepared for a future with them.
[he turns one of the corners]
I don’t know if I can fight for that, or if I’m ready to. Not like you are.
He reaches up to pat Eunhyuk's shoulder gently.] I think you are, but I understand. You haven't forgotten what I said, right? About... agreeing the two of us deserve to live. Because we want to, and we're alive. Well. "Alive." [Listen.]
Even if there is no future for any of us here, try not to let the present you can spend with them honestly slip by.
[Taps the second sign for Eunhyuk. He takes the cube back, offering Eunhyuk another reassuring smile, small.]
You're not so bad. I think you might lie more to yourself than anywhere else, if I can be honest with you.
[He taps Eunhyuk over the heart with the edge of the cube.]
It was hard at first, and it was definitely scary... but I don't think it's so bad now, following this a little for a change. I wasn't so sure there for a while. I thought about taking it out. Being like Scien. Getting rid of how I felt. But now I'm glad I didn't.
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So maybe it's time to change, to make amends.
A small smile comes to his face. He does understand exactly how Eunhyuk feels.] Yes. [He says this so quickly.
He holds the Rubik's Cube out; Eunhyuk can take it if he wants.]
I still am. Very afraid. There are... so many uncertain variables. I'm sick; I have maybe... a year or so to live. I'm pretty sure I was getting blown up right before waking up here, too. Lucien is stuck in his own calamity with the Nine, with parts of himself. And my body is... [A wry laugh.] ...terribly unattractive. This isn't even accounting for... differences in lifespans maybe. Things like that. How this will all turn out in the end.
But someone reminded me that... even if all of those things didn't exist, if everything was lining up perfectly... I could still die unexpectedly at any time. Lucien could, too. So what point is there in being too afraid to move forward? I want to stop... squandering the time I do have being scared of the future.
If you love them, tell them. Sidon taught me that, too.
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Eunhyuk carefully takes the cube, and holds it in his hand like it’s a baby bird, as tentatively as he’s listening to Viktor as he speaks. He’s not making it hard to understand, actually he’s making it very easy. That despite all these obstacles, Viktor clearly believes that his love has greater value, that it’s worth it.]
…If I tell them, then I should be ready to commit to them too, right? I should be prepared for a future with them.
[he turns one of the corners]
I don’t know if I can fight for that, or if I’m ready to. Not like you are.
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He reaches up to pat Eunhyuk's shoulder gently.] I think you are, but I understand. You haven't forgotten what I said, right? About... agreeing the two of us deserve to live. Because we want to, and we're alive. Well. "Alive." [Listen.]
Even if there is no future for any of us here, try not to let the present you can spend with them honestly slip by.
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Eunhyuk peers at Viktor from beneath his bangs,]
...I haven't. [forgotten, that was a very rare moment -- meeting someone who can understand perfectly the burdens you carry,
he turns another corner of the cube, and then he holds it out for Viktor to take,]
I'll try to be honest. It'll be hard, since I'm a liar.
[don't make stupid jokes]
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You're not so bad. I think you might lie more to yourself than anywhere else, if I can be honest with you.
[He taps Eunhyuk over the heart with the edge of the cube.]
It was hard at first, and it was definitely scary... but I don't think it's so bad now, following this a little for a change. I wasn't so sure there for a while. I thought about taking it out. Being like Scien. Getting rid of how I felt. But now I'm glad I didn't.
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I think just having one of him around here is enough.
[HE'S JOKING.... kind of......... no he's only half-joking, and also half-serious that he's glad Viktor remains... Viktor.]
...I'm glad too. That you kept your heart.