He will be careful of the rusty head... Please stop getting hurt, you stupid shark, as if he doesn't continue to get hurt and also have 1 constitution point.
For what it's worth, he doesn't seem to be bothered by the call out for Lucien.] Don't say that. You don't deserve it. [He knows Sidon is too Good, and that, ultimately, is why Lucien is so ruffled.]
I understand. He is quite rude and awful. He was mean to me for a while at first in earnest.
[So he doesn't begrudge Sidon the dislike.]
Life hasn't been kind to him at all, but... I think it's also because he is... missing a piece of himself. The one... stuck inside him? I think that's him, too. A piece of him that got left behind in his body when his soul...
I just don't know if... it can be fixed, and if it does, what will happen.
[He is really fucking fussy and firm about this in particular. Even if Sidon had reamed Lucien, or punched the guy, Sidon wouldn't have deserved it. Sometimes, Lucien just needs a good sock, kinda like Scien.
Gently, he shakes his head.]
It isn't me. It's something he will have to do on his own, if he wants to do it at all. I can't... put them together. They have to accept one another again somehow. Come back together. I don't even know if it works that way.
[ wow? stubborn? he deserves a little meanness after he viciously maimed and murdered two friends, but he knows there's no point in arguing.
it makes him smile a little, abashed. ]
If you say so.
[ a pause. he takes a moment to anchor himself in the feeling of water and a grounding touch. it's been a long few days, and it's only now, talking like this, that he's starting to feel like he's returned anywhere. ]
...People don't often heal alone, I think. Maybe the last step is his own, but—I wouldn't discount what a person's love and support can do. [ it's a mentality that he's long adopted—if he can't fix all that ails everyone, he can love and have faith in them, at least. bolster them enough that they can get a little further on their own strength. ] You like to underestimate yourself too much.
[The PVP was not something Sidon could help, and Viktor understands that more than anyone. He cannot begin to say how awful it was to be forced to beat the shit out of Lucien with magic, with distrust.
They weren't even in Lucien's headspace!!
His hand pauses and lifts a little away to give Sidon space to settle in the water. It's probably nice. He remembers, once he stopped panicking, how much better his body felt being weightless in the water.]
No one has really ever relied on me for anything.
[Which is why he got nervous--about Sidon's station. How you going to support a dude in royal burdens when you can't even remember to eat?]
[ PVP is a nightmare! being forced to hurt people you care about is truly the worst possible thing.
he can't quite relax, not with these eyes watching them, but he does feel a little better just submerging some of them. like that'll blur the vision of the nine, somehow. ]
It's different now.
[ which he is gradually trying to convince viktor of. have some self worth you idiot. ]
You know I rely on you. Otherwise I wouldn't be telling you all this—I realize it is a burden to hear. [ he is royalty and it's not his favorite thing to be vulnerable, but he does want to rely on viktor, at least. ]
[ he is getting better, though the bar is on the ground. jayce please take better care of your lil guy.
he watches him lay himself out on the very comfortable cavern floor with a lopsided little smile. viktor really doesn't need to hang out here, but he appreciates that he would, even without asking. and he wouldn't ask because, (anna voice) listen. sometimes your job is to take care of other people. the role reversal is weird. ]
Look, sometimes you do things for people you care a lot about, like have a bad back and still lie on the rocky ground because they are an aquatic dude. He laughs a bit, quiet.]
You are also a good friend, Sidon. [...] I'm glad you're okay. Aside from, um, the Eyes and what happened.
I mean--if you're not okay, that's fine, too. I don't mind.
[ coming back to this like TRAITOR!!!!! MY SUNDAY PC!!!!!!!
this sounds incredibly uncomfortable for viktor but he's not going to chase off having company. moment of extroverted selfishness. he can take care of himself, usually, but he isn't the type to crawl under a porch and lick his wounds alone. ]
I'm all right! Or I will be, at least. [ he'll be okay, he just needs some time to process. he looks at viktor where he's sprawled out, tired too, but still stirring enough to flick a few water droplets at him. ] Trying to get me all weepy and vulnerable, are you?
He will suffer some (dw user) discomfort for Sidon because some times you turn out to have a lot of very strong feelings for a fucking fish guy like a monster fucker. He sputters quietly as chilly water is flicked on him, and he tries to shield himself with his hands.
It makes him turn over onto his stomach so he can fold his arms and put his head on them.]
N-No! Not that... there's anything wrong with being weepy and vulnerable. Even princes have feelings like everyone else.
[ all of us closing the doors and shutting the catflap
anyway, he can't help being a monsterfucker, it is what it is. he laughs as viktor startles, not so boisterous but still a sincere, amused chuckle as he pokes him in the forehead. ]
Oh no, I won't fall for that, you're trying to bait me into being emotional! [ he's teasing, it's more fun than Angst. ] I did used to be quite the crybaby. But not anymore. Afraid you missed your window of opportunity!
Don't laugh! His eyes shut and face scrunches gently as he's poked, but he looks at Sidon after again.]
You're, like... one of the most emotional people here, you realize. [LOOKS AT THIS FUCKING GRAVEYARD!!!! He says this like it's a good thing, not a bad thing also.] ...I can't imagine you being a crybaby at all.
[ he just hums and tucks his arm under his head again, not bothering to argue. the bar is like, on the ground. two of the people here literally can't feel the full spectrum of emotion by definition of what they are. ]
I did often. I was even more shy than you are now.
[ and in contrast, that bar is a high one to clear. ]
I couldn't even talk to strangers—so I can understand your timidness, a little.
[ they all make much cuter children than adults, the baby potion proves it. he relaxes now that they're not talking about lucien's wild brain ride. ]
Please, I really was! Talking to people I didn't know was petrifying.
[ memories of ducking behind mipha's legs to escape being perceived. ]
I grew better with people by necessity— [ suddenly becoming the eldest child and ] I made myself practice. Have you ever heard of a prince who couldn't speak to his subjects? Mortifying prospect.
[Ah yes, the sister he will never know the trauma about.
The idea of a shy prince makes him chuckle, but not at Sidon's expense. It's kind of endearing actually.]
It must be hard, though. To lead others like that especially if you're worried or upset. I couldn't even imagine getting on stage when we were introducing Hextech to the public and sponsors, and that seems so small in comparison. Jayce had to do it.
I never liked being in the spotlight that way. I was too nervous. I didn't have the face for it like Jayce did.
it's interesting, how this jayce fellow comes up enough that he must be someone important, a partner, but perhaps not one that viktor would return home for solely. ]
I wouldn't say it's easy, no. [ talking to one person is simple; having to command the attention of hundreds is very different. he can understand why anyone would struggle with it. ] But you weren't born knowing how to build a boat, or turn a screw. Anyone can improve with practice, even in speaking.
[ a slightly slanted smile. ]
...Though you might not really enjoy it. [ viktor could be a lecturer, maybe, but an orator? probably not very fun. ]
[At any other point in time, he may have gone back to Jayce and their research. But things happen... Little things that wiggle into the mind, unnoticed at the time, but now fully clear without the clarification of a conversation about it...]
That's true.
[He likely could be a teacher, though hearing this told to him once really surprised him. He did not... think he was teacher material. That place is such a high honor, it feels like... Imparting knowledge to others eager to learn...
But then he thinks about the one dude who was stupid but kept marching forward toward innovation anyway and now has a statue.]
I'm a little sad I didn't get the chance to meet the shy baby Sidon.
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He will be careful of the rusty head... Please stop getting hurt, you stupid shark, as if he doesn't continue to get hurt and also have 1 constitution point.
For what it's worth, he doesn't seem to be bothered by the call out for Lucien.] Don't say that. You don't deserve it. [He knows Sidon is too Good, and that, ultimately, is why Lucien is so ruffled.]
I understand. He is quite rude and awful. He was mean to me for a while at first in earnest.
[So he doesn't begrudge Sidon the dislike.]
Life hasn't been kind to him at all, but... I think it's also because he is... missing a piece of himself. The one... stuck inside him? I think that's him, too. A piece of him that got left behind in his body when his soul...
I just don't know if... it can be fixed, and if it does, what will happen.
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I did deserve it this time.
[ but he wouldn't put up with being treated poorly forever because he has self esteem, it's okay. in any case, he tilts his head. ]
If all the pieces are there... you should be able to put them back together somehow, right? I'm sure you'll manage it.
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[He is really fucking fussy and firm about this in particular. Even if Sidon had reamed Lucien, or punched the guy, Sidon wouldn't have deserved it. Sometimes, Lucien just needs a good sock, kinda like Scien.
Gently, he shakes his head.]
It isn't me. It's something he will have to do on his own, if he wants to do it at all. I can't... put them together. They have to accept one another again somehow. Come back together. I don't even know if it works that way.
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it makes him smile a little, abashed. ]
If you say so.
[ a pause. he takes a moment to anchor himself in the feeling of water and a grounding touch. it's been a long few days, and it's only now, talking like this, that he's starting to feel like he's returned anywhere. ]
...People don't often heal alone, I think. Maybe the last step is his own, but—I wouldn't discount what a person's love and support can do. [ it's a mentality that he's long adopted—if he can't fix all that ails everyone, he can love and have faith in them, at least. bolster them enough that they can get a little further on their own strength. ] You like to underestimate yourself too much.
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They weren't even in Lucien's headspace!!
His hand pauses and lifts a little away to give Sidon space to settle in the water. It's probably nice. He remembers, once he stopped panicking, how much better his body felt being weightless in the water.]
No one has really ever relied on me for anything.
[Which is why he got nervous--about Sidon's station. How you going to support a dude in royal burdens when you can't even remember to eat?]
Except maybe Jayce with our research.
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he can't quite relax, not with these eyes watching them, but he does feel a little better just submerging some of them. like that'll blur the vision of the nine, somehow. ]
It's different now.
[ which he is gradually trying to convince viktor of. have some self worth you idiot. ]
You know I rely on you. Otherwise I wouldn't be telling you all this—I realize it is a burden to hear. [ he is royalty and it's not his favorite thing to be vulnerable, but he does want to rely on viktor, at least. ]
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Once Sidon is settled, he shifts so he can lie down carefully by the edge on his back, straightening it out beneath him, wincing. Better.]
I know, I know... It's not a burden. I don't mind listening to anything you have to tell me. You listen to me all the time. It's fair.
[DON'T TALK ABOUT HIM, MR. PRINCE SIDON WHO DOESN'T WANT ANYONE ELSE TO WORRY ABOUT HIM!]
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he watches him lay himself out on the very comfortable cavern floor with a lopsided little smile. viktor really doesn't need to hang out here, but he appreciates that he would, even without asking. and he wouldn't ask because, (anna voice) listen. sometimes your job is to take care of other people. the role reversal is weird. ]
You're a good friend, Viktor.
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Look, sometimes you do things for people you care a lot about, like have a bad back and still lie on the rocky ground because they are an aquatic dude. He laughs a bit, quiet.]
You are also a good friend, Sidon. [...] I'm glad you're okay. Aside from, um, the Eyes and what happened.
I mean--if you're not okay, that's fine, too. I don't mind.
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this sounds incredibly uncomfortable for viktor but he's not going to chase off having company. moment of extroverted selfishness. he can take care of himself, usually, but he isn't the type to crawl under a porch and lick his wounds alone. ]
I'm all right! Or I will be, at least. [ he'll be okay, he just needs some time to process. he looks at viktor where he's sprawled out, tired too, but still stirring enough to flick a few water droplets at him. ] Trying to get me all weepy and vulnerable, are you?
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He will suffer some (dw user) discomfort for Sidon because some times you turn out to have a lot of very strong feelings for a fucking fish guy like a monster fucker. He sputters quietly as chilly water is flicked on him, and he tries to shield himself with his hands.
It makes him turn over onto his stomach so he can fold his arms and put his head on them.]
N-No! Not that... there's anything wrong with being weepy and vulnerable. Even princes have feelings like everyone else.
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anyway, he can't help being a monsterfucker, it is what it is. he laughs as viktor startles, not so boisterous but still a sincere, amused chuckle as he pokes him in the forehead. ]
Oh no, I won't fall for that, you're trying to bait me into being emotional! [ he's teasing, it's more fun than Angst. ] I did used to be quite the crybaby. But not anymore. Afraid you missed your window of opportunity!
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Don't laugh! His eyes shut and face scrunches gently as he's poked, but he looks at Sidon after again.]
You're, like... one of the most emotional people here, you realize. [LOOKS AT THIS FUCKING GRAVEYARD!!!! He says this like it's a good thing, not a bad thing also.] ...I can't imagine you being a crybaby at all.
Did you really cry all the time?
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I did often. I was even more shy than you are now.
[ and in contrast, that bar is a high one to clear. ]
I couldn't even talk to strangers—so I can understand your timidness, a little.
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You were shy, too? I know you're teasing me now. There's no way you were too shy to talk to strangers...
[THIS IS THE BIGGEST MYSTERY TO HIM?]
How did you stop being so shy?
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Please, I really was! Talking to people I didn't know was petrifying.
[ memories of ducking behind mipha's legs to escape being perceived. ]
I grew better with people by necessity— [ suddenly becoming the eldest child and ] I made myself practice. Have you ever heard of a prince who couldn't speak to his subjects? Mortifying prospect.
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The idea of a shy prince makes him chuckle, but not at Sidon's expense. It's kind of endearing actually.]
It must be hard, though. To lead others like that especially if you're worried or upset. I couldn't even imagine getting on stage when we were introducing Hextech to the public and sponsors, and that seems so small in comparison. Jayce had to do it.
I never liked being in the spotlight that way. I was too nervous. I didn't have the face for it like Jayce did.
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it's interesting, how this jayce fellow comes up enough that he must be someone important, a partner, but perhaps not one that viktor would return home for solely. ]
I wouldn't say it's easy, no. [ talking to one person is simple; having to command the attention of hundreds is very different. he can understand why anyone would struggle with it. ] But you weren't born knowing how to build a boat, or turn a screw. Anyone can improve with practice, even in speaking.
[ a slightly slanted smile. ]
...Though you might not really enjoy it. [ viktor could be a lecturer, maybe, but an orator? probably not very fun. ]
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That's true.
[He likely could be a teacher, though hearing this told to him once really surprised him. He did not... think he was teacher material. That place is such a high honor, it feels like... Imparting knowledge to others eager to learn...
But then he thinks about the one dude who was stupid but kept marching forward toward innovation anyway and now has a statue.]
I'm a little sad I didn't get the chance to meet the shy baby Sidon.