[It is a shock to re-experience something so pivotal and also so pathetic. It's a shock to experience it with someone else, for another person to see the secrets stowed away, hidden from the world out of fear.
He stumbles back until he regains his footing, his heart racing wild in his chest.]
[SWEET VIKTOR. Dahut moves after him a little, like he's prepared to catch him if he tumbles, hands held gentle and at the ready.
There's a little bit of trepidation, perhaps, if only because this is such a very visceral reaction... But only a little. finally i am playing someone who won't politely look away from memories and be like I WON'T ASK.]
He remains on his legs! Somehow! But his hands are quivering slightly. He tries to level his breathing, though it's not so wild he might faint. Rattled, he's rattled.]
It... had worked. It had worked... at first. It was responding to... organic material...
The way that Dahut's desire to learn more is currently at war with his desire to fuss. He reaches out like he's going to rest a hand on him, but thinks better of it given how shaken Viktor currently seems to be, so he just ends up nervously wringing his hands instead.]
[He flips out again. No, it's fine. He is unhinged, but also soft of heart. That's why the heart has to come out later, haha!
He bends at the shoulders and holds himself, but then starts pacing back and forth, shaking his head.]
It didn't! It learned! It was learning! But I-- [He stops and stares off into the middle distance.] A hypothesis should always be retested.
A piece of equipment should always be able to be tested again and work the same way, produce the same results! So I... I did it again... I tried... to do it again.
[DON'T JUST SAY THAT'S WHY THE HEART HAS TO COME OUT LATER HELLO.
Dahut will give him some space to do his manic pacing, folding his arms over his stomach and watching as he goes to and fro in this fucking hellvoid. It's not like he can disagree with any of this, as a scientist. Hypotheses do need to be tested and retested, even at the risk of sacrifice.]
What happened when you tried it again, Monsieur Viktor?
[WOW HE JUST WATCHED A PERSON BECOME ASH IN REALTIME. MY GOD.
This is also so many emotions. Viktor is such an emotional person. He's out here having all of these big feelings and Dahut's little freak heart is having trouble processing them, so as they tear back out of the arms of this memory, now he's the one hunching over a little. His hands are both on his chest, over his memory bank, and he has to take several deep breaths to ensure that he doesn't start careening toward a crash.]
He's heaving, hyperventilating. It takes a moment. In the midst of it, he stumbles toward Dahut, reaching up to catch a hold of Dahut's shoulder. PLEASE DON'T GET CHINATSU SNAPPED ON HIM, HE'LL MCLOSE IT. HIS SANITY IS HANGING ON BY A SINGLE THREAD.]
Are you... alright?
[He's remembering the trial. He's remembering what Scien said, what they all speculated.]
Dahut disintegrates, becoming ash and also flying away on the wind.
No just kidding, but he's very still for a second or two as he fastly tries to process all of this. MY GOD. Eventually, though, he'll reach up to place his own hand on the hand at his shoulder.]
That should be my question, monsieur... I'm so sorry.
[Both that this happened and that he had to relive it while sharing it with A DAHUT.]
[STOP Viktor just emerges from the void with only Dahut's ashes.]
Please, you certainly don't have to apologize either. [He straightens, then, shifting so he can remove Viktor's hand from his shoulder and holding it between his own instead.]
...I'm speculating that it's the nanites again. This has happened more than once and nothing else has, except for the... parts disappearing. But I think that's just the Helly Belly digestion. [CALL IT ANYTHING ELSE.]
He swallows, feeling dirty for having Dahut hold his hand. The hand that really vaporized her away! And now Dahut is holding it like a saint. (why did my fingers try to type leech?????)]
...Yes. [His chin drops, head lowering with guilt. He looks anywhere not Dahut's face and eyes.] Sky... She was... our assistant.
[YOU REALLY SAID LEECHES YOU LEECHES YOU LEECHES YOU.
Dahut will continue to hold this hand that vaporized a wholeass person into dust, seemingly unbothered by it. i typed vampirize oh no.]
... [Silence, for a moment. His expression shifts into something soft in its empathetic hurt. He doesn't have an assistant to lose, but losing Scien, even for just a short four hours, had been such an awful thing.]
[ME WAKING UP TO REMEMBERING I ALMOST TYPED HE WAS HOLDING HIS HAND LIKE A LEECH.
Anyhow, glad Scien and Viktor continue to be almost the same person in a way. What's the harm in killing some assistants? He wishes Dahut wouldn't look at him like that, like Sidon does too sometimes. He feels so disgusting getting sympathy after doing something so horrendous.]
Yes... It was... a few days before I woke up here.
[NO FEET, LEECHES FOR HANDS, WHAT IS HAPPENING HERE.
This is so funny though they really are the same person in a way. Sickly twink rat version of Scien out here departicling assistants. Dahut cannot help what he looks like or is looking like, so Viktor will just have to perish under unwanted empathy as his evil little blasty paw is held.]
Dealing with that kind of grief on top of everything else on arrival must have been so difficult... What a dangerous thing...
[Viktor's fucking DEATH CUBE OF DISINTEGRATION that is.]
[THAT ISN'T WHAT HE MEANT, YOU STUPID DONUT. LISTEN HERE. Maybe someone else disintegrated their innocent assistant.]
I get it.
[Why there is a lot of sympathy even if he DOESN'T DESERVE IT. There are so many better people to give sympathy to not a man who accidentally ashed a girl who liked him.]
Yes. He's like a brother to me.
[He is so confident in this, but it definitely probably won't end up that way. This is what happens when you stick your science hand into the politic bowl. And also get the hots for one of the council women. Who will you betray? Your dying, sickly stand-in science brother partner, or a very beautiful and intelligent piece of ass?]
Wow this man's cheeseburger sasuke too huh. This is where he and Scien wildly differ...
In the meantime, Dahut listens to him say this with so much confidence, but he has also been alive for 65 years! He knows how these things tend to work out!! Absolute power corrupts absolutely!! So there's truly just several long moments of silence before he eventually nods.]
[STOP. The way Dahut pauses now has the doubt that was already settled in the back of his mind swelling into the front. No, stop that. Jayce has been good to him. Jayce... wouldn't do that to him?
He explained! He explained after the Hex Core, after Sky... Jayce will... understand. He wouldn't. His jaw tightens.]
But Dahut just nods. It's not like he can say anything that Viktor probably doesn't already know...]
Mm. Okay.
[Gives his lil paws a squeeze! As a memory bleeds out between them and i evilly cackle and trap you into a later week pc so i can give you the worse one HEH.]
He jolts when he's flung back, waiting for his brain to catch up with what he had witnessed. NOT SCIEN. Not--a girl? There is just this random young woman there with them.]
He'll reach forward to help keep Viktor stable, looking a little sheepish. He just saw some lady get dusted and now he has to deal with explaining this WHY!!]
Ah, Monsieur Scien and myself? I did mention that we head separate teams before...
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He stumbles back until he regains his footing, his heart racing wild in his chest.]
The Hex Core... No...!
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There's a little bit of trepidation, perhaps, if only because this is such a very visceral reaction... But only a little. finally i am playing someone who won't politely look away from memories and be like I WON'T ASK.]
What was it, then?
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He remains on his legs! Somehow! But his hands are quivering slightly. He tries to level his breathing, though it's not so wild he might faint. Rattled, he's rattled.]
It... had worked. It had worked... at first. It was responding to... organic material...
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The way that Dahut's desire to learn more is currently at war with his desire to fuss. He reaches out like he's going to rest a hand on him, but thinks better of it given how shaken Viktor currently seems to be, so he just ends up nervously wringing his hands instead.]
What... happened that made it stop working...?
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He bends at the shoulders and holds himself, but then starts pacing back and forth, shaking his head.]
It didn't! It learned! It was learning! But I-- [He stops and stares off into the middle distance.] A hypothesis should always be retested.
A piece of equipment should always be able to be tested again and work the same way, produce the same results! So I... I did it again... I tried... to do it again.
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Dahut will give him some space to do his manic pacing, folding his arms over his stomach and watching as he goes to and fro in this fucking hellvoid. It's not like he can disagree with any of this, as a scientist. Hypotheses do need to be tested and retested, even at the risk of sacrifice.]
What happened when you tried it again, Monsieur Viktor?
[CLEARLY NOTHING FUCKING GOOD.]
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Viktor!
He twists his head around to look at Dahut, expression like wild prey, terrified, entranced. Tears begin to well up in his unblinking eyes.
Another sliver of the most recent past swallows Dahut up.]
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This is also so many emotions. Viktor is such an emotional person. He's out here having all of these big feelings and Dahut's little freak heart is having trouble processing them, so as they tear back out of the arms of this memory, now he's the one hunching over a little. His hands are both on his chest, over his memory bank, and he has to take several deep breaths to ensure that he doesn't start careening toward a crash.]
That was...
[YOU ASHED YOUR SKY.]
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He's heaving, hyperventilating. It takes a moment. In the midst of it, he stumbles toward Dahut, reaching up to catch a hold of Dahut's shoulder. PLEASE DON'T GET CHINATSU SNAPPED ON HIM, HE'LL MCLOSE IT. HIS SANITY IS HANGING ON BY A SINGLE THREAD.]
Are you... alright?
[He's remembering the trial. He's remembering what Scien said, what they all speculated.]
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Dahut disintegrates, becoming ash and also flying away on the wind.
No just kidding, but he's very still for a second or two as he fastly tries to process all of this. MY GOD. Eventually, though, he'll reach up to place his own hand on the hand at his shoulder.]
That should be my question, monsieur... I'm so sorry.
[Both that this happened and that he had to relive it while sharing it with A DAHUT.]
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You don't... have to apologize. [STOP APOLOGIZING.] I'm sorry...
[IF HE BREAKS DAHUT, SCIEN WILL KICK HIM IN THE HEAD AGAIN!!!]
I don't... know why this is happening.
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Please, you certainly don't have to apologize either. [He straightens, then, shifting so he can remove Viktor's hand from his shoulder and holding it between his own instead.]
...I'm speculating that it's the nanites again. This has happened more than once and nothing else has, except for the... parts disappearing. But I think that's just the Helly Belly digestion. [CALL IT ANYTHING ELSE.]
...Was that-- your assistant?
[YOU BLASTED YOUR ASSISTANT GIRLFRIEND.]
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He swallows, feeling dirty for having Dahut hold his hand. The hand that really vaporized her away! And now Dahut is holding it like a saint. (why did my fingers try to type leech?????)]
...Yes. [His chin drops, head lowering with guilt. He looks anywhere not Dahut's face and eyes.] Sky... She was... our assistant.
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Dahut will continue to hold this hand that vaporized a wholeass person into dust, seemingly unbothered by it. i typed vampirize oh no.]
... [Silence, for a moment. His expression shifts into something soft in its empathetic hurt. He doesn't have an assistant to lose, but losing Scien, even for just a short four hours, had been such an awful thing.]
Was that recent...?
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Anyhow, glad Scien and Viktor continue to be almost the same person in a way. What's the harm in killing some assistants? He wishes Dahut wouldn't look at him like that, like Sidon does too sometimes. He feels so disgusting getting sympathy after doing something so horrendous.]
Yes... It was... a few days before I woke up here.
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This is so funny though they really are the same person in a way. Sickly twink rat version of Scien out here departicling assistants. Dahut cannot help what he looks like or is looking like, so Viktor will just have to perish under unwanted empathy as his evil little blasty paw is held.]
Dealing with that kind of grief on top of everything else on arrival must have been so difficult... What a dangerous thing...
[Viktor's fucking DEATH CUBE OF DISINTEGRATION that is.]
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I'm sure I'm not the only one here dealing with that sort of situation, so... You don't have to baby me.
[His jaw tightens at the last bit, though. Ashamed, he turns his head away.]
The Hex Core is dangerous. I asked Jayce to destroy it. He promised.
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ALSO HE'S PRETTY SURE THAT VIKTOR IS THE ONLY PERSON HERE DEALING WITH DISINTEGRATING THEIR ASSISTANT but he doesn't say that.]
I don't mean to baby you. I think that anyone who's experienced something like that deserves to have the difficulty of it acknowledged...
[SHIT IS WILD OUT THERE. His brow furrows a little at this last statement, though, and he hesitates for a second before speaking again.]
...You trust him, right? Jayce.
[Because the Hex Core is dangerous but it also seems quite powerful, and isn't that a tale as old as time.]
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I get it.
[Why there is a lot of sympathy even if he DOESN'T DESERVE IT. There are so many better people to give sympathy to not a man who accidentally ashed a girl who liked him.]
Yes. He's like a brother to me.
[He is so confident in this, but it definitely probably won't end up that way. This is what happens when you stick your science hand into the politic bowl. And also get the hots for one of the council women. Who will you betray? Your dying, sickly stand-in science brother partner, or a very beautiful and intelligent piece of ass?]
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Wow this man's cheeseburger sasuke too huh. This is where he and Scien wildly differ...
In the meantime, Dahut listens to him say this with so much confidence, but he has also been alive for 65 years! He knows how these things tend to work out!! Absolute power corrupts absolutely!! So there's truly just several long moments of silence before he eventually nods.]
...Then I hope that he won't let you down.
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He explained! He explained after the Hex Core, after Sky... Jayce will... understand. He wouldn't. His jaw tightens.]
He won't...
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But Dahut just nods. It's not like he can say anything that Viktor probably doesn't already know...]
Mm. Okay.
[Gives his lil paws a squeeze! As a memory bleeds out between them and i evilly cackle and trap you into a later week pc so i can give you the worse one HEH.]
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He jolts when he's flung back, waiting for his brain to catch up with what he had witnessed. NOT SCIEN. Not--a girl? There is just this random young woman there with them.]
Who...? You don't... agree?
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He'll reach forward to help keep Viktor stable, looking a little sheepish. He just saw some lady get dusted and now he has to deal with explaining this WHY!!]
Ah, Monsieur Scien and myself? I did mention that we head separate teams before...
[Back when Viktor was being a SULKY BABY.]
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I know that, but... The fact you still work together. You still--work closely together. You were sad when he...
...I'll never understand.
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